Interestingly enough... I find myself sitting at my computer with good intentions to grade papers for my kids tomorrow. WHy is it that I can motivate myself to do things at school, but am sparatic about them at home? I always "mean well"... just can't keep the motivation going (BTW... my papers, key, and book is starring at me as we speak... well, uh... write).
I find myself drawn, now, to various coaching web sites that I frequent. Then reading several friends' blogs to see what they have to say... only to fall thru Alice's rabbit-hole to my own. (wow... pretty poetic) I guess this is a time that I can look back on the day's events and just thank God for what he's blessed me with.
If you were to tell me 2.5 ~ 3 years ago that life would really be different with a child in the house... which many did anyway... I would have (and did) just laugh it off and wonder, "hm... yea sure." I first of all just want to say... I'm so blessed to have my wife! God knew what he was doing when he opened my eyes in her direction. She has been the "driveway cement filler" in the cracks of my being. (just FYI... out in the driveway tonight, noticed a crack in the middle, and thought "I need to fill that"... that's where the analogy came from... not too random there). Then... there's my son... who in his eyes, I'm the biggest thing since the invention of the "sippy-cup." Ok... maybe not the sippy-cup... but DEFINITELY... ok... I'll have to ask him one of these days. Anyway... you can just see the look in his eyes when I come home or when we're outside shooting baskets. He laughs and does his "dunk-AH!" even when I miss a shot. He thinks I'm awesome... that's a good feeling. Can't imagine what life will be like with 2 KIDS in the house! There's a whole lot of love in this house and it's about to grow. I LOVE IT!
Which then brings me to my answer at the beginning of this post... why am I distracted when I get home? Because there is a lot of love and laughing to be spent at home. A whole lot of reading books over and over and over again in 1 sitting. A whole lot of watching "Wheel of Fortune" and watching Joel clap for the people who win. A whole lot of cuddling with the love of your life on the couch... sharing a movie together after the kid(s) are a sleep. A whole lot of nights when you fall asleep, peacefully, and haven't finished that prayer to your heavenly Father that you had started.
I know that I'm guilty of focusing on the negatives of life... and dealing with the occassional positive. But there are some many positive things in my life, right now... and I feel like I'm wasting them away by not taking full advantage of them.
Lord, please help me to be the man that YOU want me to be. Help me find the words, actions, and the confidence to be an example... and a leader. Help me to always put you first and imagine what YOU might do in every situation.
(ok... this was REALLY long...)
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